Today I cried twice. When I say "cried" I mean tears came to my eyes. The first time was when I happened across this picture of my mum and dad at our wedding.
Both my parents passed away long ago. It is not so much that I miss them (although I do) but rather the reminder of how, in retrospect, I would like to have spent more time with them in their later life. Exploring this further might be the subject of a future blog.
The second time I cried was on reading:
"Please - Mr Lion - Aslan - Sir," said Digory, "could you - may I - please, will you give me some magic fruit of this country to make Mother well?"
He had been desperately hoping that the Lion would say "Yes"; he had been horribly afraid it might say "No". But he was taken aback when it did neither.
"This is the Boy," said Aslan, looking, not at Digory, but at his councillors. "This is the Boy who did it."
"Oh dear," thought Digory, "what have I done now?"
"Son of Adam," said the Lion. "There is an evil Witch abroad in my new land of Narnia. Tell these good Beasts how she came here."
A dozen different things that he might say flashed through Digory's mind, but he had the sense to say nothing except the exact truth.
"I brought her, Aslan," he answered in a low voice.
"For what purpose?"
"I wanted to get her out of my own world back into her own. I thought I was taking her back to her own place."
"How came she to be in your world, Son of Adam?"
"By - by Magic."
The Lion said nothing and Digory knew that he had not told enough.
"It was my Uncle, Aslan," he said. "He sent us out of our own world by magic rings, at least I had to go because he sent Polly first, and then we met the Witch in a place called Charn and she just held on to us when -"
"You met the Witch?" said Asian in a low voice which had the threat of a growl in it.
"She woke up," said Digory wretchedly. And then, turning very white, "I mean, I woke her. Because I wanted to know what would happen if I struck a bell. Polly didn't want to. It wasn't her fault. I - I fought her. I know I shouldn't have. I think I was a bit enchanted by the writing under the bell."
"Do you?" asked Asian; still speaking very low and deep. .
"No," said Digory. "I see now I wasn't. I was only pretending."
There was a long pause. And Digory was thinking all the time, "I've spoiled everything. There's no chance of getting anything for Mother now."
...
"That is well," said Aslan. "And now for the Boy himself."
Digory kept his mouth very tight shut. He had been growing more and more uncomfortable. He hoped that, whatever happened, he wouldn't blub or do anything ridiculous.
"Son of Adam," said Aslan. "Are you ready to undo the wrong that you have done to my sweet country of Narnia on the very day of its birth?"
"Well, I don't see what I can do," said Digory. "You see, the Queen ran away and -"
"I asked, are you ready?" said the Lion.
"Yes," said Digory. He had had for a second some wild idea of saying "I'll try to help you if you'll promise to help my Mother," but he realized in time that the Lion was not at all the sort of person one could try to make bargains with. But when he had said "Yes," he thought of his Mother, and he thought of the great hopes he had had, and how they were all dying away, and a lump came in his throat and tears in his eyes, and he blurted out:
"But please, please - won't you - can't you give me something that will cure Mother?" Up till then he had been looking at the Lion's great feet and the huge claws on them; now, in his despair, he looked up at its face. What he saw surprised him as much as anything in his whole life. For the tawny face was bent down near his own and (wonder of wonders) great shining tears stood in the Lion's eyes. They were such big, bright tears compared with Digory's own that for a moment he felt as if the Lion must really be sorrier about his Mother than he was himself.
"My son, my son," said Aslan. "I know. Grief is great. Only you and I in this land know that yet. Let us be good to one another. But I have to think of hundreds of years in the life of Narnia. The Witch whom you have brought into this world will come back to Narnia again. But it need not be yet. It is my wish to plant in Narnia a tree that she will not dare to approach, and that tree will protect Narnia from her for many years. So this land shall have a long, bright morning before any clouds come over the sun. You must get me the seed from which that tree is to grow."
"Yes, sir," said Digory. He didn't know how it was to be done but he felt quite sure now that he would be able to do it. The Lion drew a deep breath, stooped its head even lower and gave him a Lion's kiss. And at once Digory felt that new strength and courage had gone into him.
The point I am making is not to force some theological parallel out of Lewis' writing, but rather to question why this sort of thing can cause such an emotional response. Could it be because there is something inherent in our nature that wants there to be an ultimate, all-powerful and 'good' authority, and the reason for that in turn being because such an entity exists?
If you walk down from our house to the bridge over the lake you will find a fence post conveniently stuck in the lake-shore. In previous years I have found that if the water level is above this post it is hard to circumnavigate the "small lake" (the segment to the south of the bridge and which is the Kings River valley). The level has been consistently high this year so that I have not been able to run this route, but today the level was only just above the post and the weather was warm so I thought I would chance it.
As it turned out the run was more of a wade and I do not think I will be repeating it unless the water level falls. But I did make the whole course barefoot and only gained one small thorn in my left big toe which I later extricated with ease. Meg had to do a fair bit of swimming. We both swam across where Kings River joins the lake. Returning on the west shore I was amazed to see a "flat rainbow". Of course I had no camera with me but, on Googling, the nearest picture to what I saw is
here, and some similar ones below.
Some sites suggest ice crystals can cause this effect. In the case I saw, the rainbow was low down over Valleymount beneath the level of the Wicklow mountains behind and it was a warm summer's day so I hardly think there could have been ice! I do not think it was just the top of a regular rainbow (the sun could not have been high enough in the sky), but I have no idea what the mechanism could be.